Last week I saw a client in my bathing suit.
I have debated invoicing her for this, since I normally don't charge people to see me in my bathing suit. =)
Honestly, I even hesitated to take a coaching call at the pool. But, wasn't the working from anywhere what attracted me to work virtually?
I faced my fears and all my insecurities took her call while watching my children play in the pool (they are great swimmers by the way), eyes on them and my heart on her. Then I noticed this one couple starting at me. They were pointing and clearly talking about me. My mind went there. I could feel the judgment. Were they judging my appearance? After two kids and my love of pizza things are not like they used to be. Were they judging me for being on the phone while my children play? Were they judging that I was not "present"?
I finished the coaching call and got my children out of the pool so we could go for lunch. The couple complemented me in my bathing suit and I felt the judgment rolling off my shoulder as it should have.
I was doing exactly what I tell my clients not to do. I was assuming, projecting my own insecurities as a mom to this situation and feeling the famous mom guilt for not being in the moment.
Truthfully, I didn't want to be in the moment. I wanted to work. I wanted to serve my client in my bathing because that is what I love doing. Even if mega million comes in my favor I will still coach! But the mom guilt is still there, poking its head and it gets a chance.
I reminded myself that I had just spent a week being "present" and in the moment with my children: playing billiard, power hockey, swimming, and watching movies. I have been present when they are sick, when they are having bad days and even when they are having great days - but what I am giving them is much more precious than being present, I am giving them a happy mom!
Your children don't care about your work or your cellulite - they want for you is the same you want for them - a happy heart!