Your self worth does not equal your net worth.
And your journey to self love might have to make a quick stop at self respect before your self love destination.
My journey started at a young age when adults would look at me with petty. I remember not words but their looks of feeling sorry for me. I remember feeling sorry for myself too at times, like when my school uniforms where too dirty or when I didn’t have money for books.
Being young and poor I made the assumption that they looked at me that way because I didn’t have much. So I made the decision then that if I had more I would be more. I subconsciously decided that my net worth would equal my self worth.
So I worked really hard to get that net worth going for me. I started juggling school and work at 13. I was 17 working in an administrative position in a federal bank and at 19 as an administrator of a multi million dollar business.
I had the apartment. The brand new car.The “power” position at work. Was going to college at night. Felt at the top of the world. But inside I was a disaster. My prince charming turned out to be a frog and was also financially and emotionally abusive. He often made a point to tell me that sacrificing sleep to go to college was a mistake because as an immigrant I wouldn’t sum to anything other than to stay home and have babies and that amazing position I had was pure luck.
I was so busy having it all that I forgot to be something. I completely lost track of who I was. My aspirations and my own identity. I was too busy proving to the world that I could have it all and woke up alone and lonely.
It was Christmas Day when I gave myself the gift of self respect by walking out of that marriage with just the clothes I had on. By respecting myself enough to walk away I gained one of the biggest life lessons til that point.
My net worth had nothing to do with my self worth.
Without much of a support system I slept in my car. I promised myself then that I would never be that broke or broken again.
My life looks very different now!
And now I get to fulfill my promise of helping other entrepreneurs have more but most importantly BE more!
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